Re: inclimate climes (wasRe: LOTR credit line)

In a message dated 2004:01:02 05:48:34 AM, elemtilas@YAHOO.COM quotes me &
writes:

>> I just hope I am honest enough to
>> remain truly human, truly humane despite of any
>> possible _situa en extremis_
>> and my reaction(s) in those situations- however
>> minor or major - are
>> alwayssubject to the harshest forms of
>> self-criticism, self-criticism and
>> self-discipline. To me _this_ is the highest
>> calling of the everyday warrior as _I_ see it.
>
>Ah. The everyday warrior. His enemy isn't to be
>found in a battle field with armies and weapons.
>He's to be found in our own heads, cos he
>bivouacs with us, messes with us, sits in on all
>the tactical councils and knows all our weapons
>and intelligence.
    And sometimes the Enemy is us.
    And one must realize that fear is the mindkiller
- I, possibly with a terminal liver disease- I am
shocked at how others with the same disease
seem so afraid and/or depressed.

    I rather fight and possibly win.
    I get knocked down, I get up again.
    The French Legionaire motto of "March or Die" comes to mind...
the Existentialist saying: "I react so I may not die" immediately follows
backing the first saying...

    I have no time to bitch, whine, complain or weep
about my "problems" (I make no apology for the seemingly
self-indulgence of this response. I feel I have already made
my down payment, paid my dues, literally in blood and vomit)

    thank thee Godhead-Reality that I have the curse of
"Depersonalization Disorder"
in which I can feel less connected to myself and this body
and thus can exist more in my head than runnin' on inconsistent gut-
feeings and faulty-logic-ridden, self-centred reactions based on
mere emotional and neurological responses (i.e. kneejerk reactions
to _avoid_ pain of all and any sort - which I find disturbingly common
amongst my generation/peers. I can't trust them "to go the distance"
with me and if necessary endure or die for another person).

    Or following the prevailing "Conventional Wisdom" of gettin' in
_touch_ with one's self, makin' peace with one's self and others, etc.
before dying. IMHO that should be done any ways - impending death or not!
    I believe I must act like I am already dead and prove myself alive
(gotta love those darkly amusin', pop-up "corpse" stories from morgue
and hospital workers).

    I can be utterly ruthless with myself (& others) and get
things done that need to be got' done -  like recovery from
20-some years of drug addiction and dealin' with the inner
demons that drove me to use so hard (hey! it will never make sense
"why." Do you think anyone in their right-mind wants to go thru their
own private, centre-stage version of HELL with all the special effects
not being at all "faked"???
    Lil Fact o' Neuro-biology: Once ol' Reptile Brainies is hooked, Ol'
Monkey Brainies is sure to follow... bein' in denial, Ol' Monkey Brainies' good at
rationalizin' just about any thing away ...)
    My recovery from addiction, to seriously paraphrase Malcolm X, is:
    By Any Means Necessary, Possible and Imaginable...

    "If the brain were so simple we could understand it, we would be so
simple we couldn't."  - Lyall Watson

    Peace and happiness, love and hate, bahhumbug!
Fleeting emotions - mere brain chemicals - are not
concrete enough, not useful enough, not "tactical"
enough to be ideals worth pursuing full-time/"fool time".

    Ideals - like weapons and tools (and language
itself)- must prove themselves to be useful in the field
under all possible conditions... like a good
all-round tactical/utilitity combat/survival knife -
like the Indo-Malay _karambit_ [for "tons" of images and
etc., see _www.karambit.com_ ]

highly recommended book (good, fairly in-depth historical/philosophical
research,
with definite conculture "apps" besides personal daily "ops"):

_The Code of the Warrior: In History, Myth, and Everyday Life_
by Rick Fields, author of _Chop Wood, Carry Water_ and
 _How the Swans Came to the Lake: A narrative history of
Buddhism in America_...ISBN 0-06-096605-X

 highly recommended eye/mind openers:

    -talking to drug addicts or alcoholics in recovery

    - talking with scholarly soldiers with combat experience(s)

    naturally these two groups overlap and ya get a convenient, colourful
2-for-1 Double Feature

    And this, OBCONLANG, can possibly effect/affect your conlanging...make it
better ;)


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