Re: CHAT: OT CHAT: Asperger's syndrome

At 08:59 22/06/00 GMT, you wrote:
>
>It's quite possible that I have some kind of depressive
>personality, but it's also possible that I create depressing
>situations for myself through my failure to solve my
>problems efficiently. Like withdrawing from them instead of
>solving them. In other words, I know that I experience what
>I would call depression (last year I didn't bother to turn
>up to any of my final examinations because I perceived there
>was no point) but I'm not sure where the ultimate cause can
>be traced to.
>
I am depressive too (and diagnosed as such) and I know where it comes from
(bad experience in a military school, if anyone understands the French word
'bizutage'. Actually it was so bad that I still don't remember everything.
When I came back from there (after one week in hospital), my parents hardly
recognized me). Currently I have the same problem with exams as you do. I
have to do a report for two weeks ago, and it's still not begun...

>The story of my academic life in the last few years (except
>for a creative writing class I did as a refreshing break) is
>that I've become very subject to letting minor problems get
>_way_ out of proportion before I confront them. Problems
>like : not knowing how to use a particular facility, or not
>having gone to a particular session because of being
>uncomfortable in a chaotic environment.
>
Looks quite a lot like me since I am in this school. Good that I have a few
facilities that made me go through until now...

>Then after a fortnight, which was a few days ago, I had one
>of those days where my thoughts'll do anything except what
>they're supposed to do (i.e. focus on study) and where these
>thoughts go around my head in very much the same
>unsuppressable way that music can. I know that other people
>have days like this and have to essentially write them off
>just as I do, but most seem to recover better afterwards.
I have a problem like that too: I cannot stop thinking. Even if I stop
voluntary thinking, thoughts still pop up in my mind and I cannot get rid
of them. Meditation is impossible to me.

>
>A couple of hours? Eek! More like a couple of seconds.
>Minutes if I'm feeling strong. It makes me feel sort of
>dizzy, and all the sensory information becomes subdued and
>unreal. Mum fears that when and if I learn to drive I will
>strike disaster through not being able to keep track of all
>the visual information you need to be aware of on the road.
>She has a point.
>
I thought the same about myself, but actually I managed to pass my driving
license without a problem (not that I like driving, I hate that! And I've
not driven any car for three years now. I must be good at nothing with one
now).

                                                Christophe Grandsire
                                                |Sela Jemufan Atlinan C.G.

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