our holy days (was: RE: Poll by Email No. 14

> This week's poll is a little "off topic" but since I'm celebrating my
> vacation, I thought that it would be interested to see what you are doing
> this summer.
Not so off-topic, because -- I remark, following on from the
recent threads of self-discloure -- for me, vacations in which
I vacate my home are mere chores undertaken for the satisfaction
of people I am placed under an obligation towards by my affection
for them. The true holiday is to stay at home and devote myself
utterly to poetry and conlanging. I hope to be able to manage to
allocate most of August to this, partly through the strategem of
not accompanying my family on its vacation. It is these precious
weeks, during which I am transported into a rapture of the most
intense exalted joy, the experience of which utterly transforms
the experience of life from something like a dull ache to
something like a constant orgasm, that I really live for, and
they make the rest of the year feel grey, unrewarding and a
chafing and frustrating impediment to regaining that joy. This
mode of experiencing life is common among artists and drug
addicts, though with the latter but not the former both the
highs and the lows tend to get lower over time. (I should add,
for clarification, that I myself am not addicted to any narcotic
but tobacco and coffee; knowing my susceptibility to addiction
and compulsive behaviour, I have been careful not even to sample
other addictive narcotics.)

If anybody else feels as I do, please don't be inhibited by
list decorum and do post a "me too" message; not one of my
friends and acquaintances has the experience I describe above
and so I am very curious to hear about others who experience
both a similar rapture and a similar debilitation when the
rapture is unattainable.

--And.



>         A. No rest for the weary: I'm working straight through summer.
>         B. I've got the entire summer off.
>         C. I'm taking a vacation or two sometime this summer.
>         D. Other.

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