Re: CHAT: Coming out of the conlang closet
|From:||BP Jonsson <bpj@...>|
|Date:||Monday, June 3, 2002, 11:38|
At 12:59 2002-06-01 +0000, Andreas Johansson wrote:
>To each his own, but for me, I experienced quite enough rejection as a kid
>that I'm perfectly willing to bend a little in order to be accepted. I don't
>see it as "being someone I'm not" (how could I?), but as think of it as
>thinking a bit about what aspects of myself I chose to display.
Me I usually have hard time balancing between "being someone I'm not" and
gaining a bit more social acceptance. It's not so much about feeling shame
about what I'm doing -- I don't do that any more -- as feeling sad about
the fact that peolple I care about think I'm weird. I regularly get to
hear from my significant other that my fertile imagination (AKA "fantasy
world" on her bad days) is a "retention" from my troubled youth, i.e.
essentially something I should go to a therapist to get rid of. At least I
can point to Tolkien, who eventually achieved wealth and fame for his
"fantasy world" -- and I'm intent on making mine come out significantly
different from his!
I have learnt not to hold forth about the kind of thing that interest me in
"ordinary" company. Unfortunately that often means that I keep silent,
since I'm awfully bad at both performing andenjoying smalltalk. Again it
is not so much me as my family that are troubled by it.
What really pisses me off is the insinuation that being lame *and* having
weird interests *and* being bad at casual conversation is worse than not
being lame and having those other traits...
B.Philip Jonsson mailto:melrochX@melroch.net (delete X)
A h-ammen ledin i phith! \ \
__ ____ ____ _____________ ____ __ __ __ / /
\ \/___ \\__ \ /___ _____/\ \\__ \\ \ \ \\ \ / /
/ / / / / \ / /Melroch\ \_/ // / / // / / /
/ /___/ /_ / /\ \ / /Melarokko\_ // /__/ // /__/ /
/_________//_/ \_\/ /Eowine __ / / \___/\_\\___/\_\
Gwaedhvenn Angeliniel\ \______/ /a/ /_h-adar Merthol naun
|| Lenda lenda pellalenda pellatellenda kuivie aiya! ||
"A coincidence, as we say in Middle-Earth" (JRR Tolkien)