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Re: OT: What? the clean-shaven outnumber the bearded?"YerUgly Mug," etc.

From:Jake X <starvingpoet@...>
Date:Sunday, May 25, 2003, 19:19
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> Jake X wrote: > > >I came out at thirteen. ;-) > > > > Pardon me, but how on Earth can you know either way if you're gay or > straight or whatever at *thirteen*?? I wouldn't've thought anyone under > 15---and that's pushing it---would be gay or straight or whatever. > (Perhaps even, how on earth could you know either way till you've had > slices of both cakes?, but I guess you can make assumptions you feel are > good enough.
Well, there comes in the choice aspect. I didn't choose to be attracted to men, but I did choose to tell people, and I did choose to close my mind to the idea of being with a woman. That was part of it, eliminating one-half (the female one) of my inner sexual tension by simply dismissing it. This may be what happens with people who are really gay but choose to be active with women. I don't know. What I do know is that it would feel wrong to me if I tried it now, basically because I am no longer open to the idea. That's what happened when I came out. Beforehand I was still analyzing myself. Jake P.S. It wasn't an assumsion. I was just _knowing._